now for the post that doesn’t suck… July 19, 2010

School is going to be hell this semester. My grades have been well below my standards in college for reasons that are sometimes out of my control. I can’t afford to let anything affect my grades negatively this semester. FOCUSSSSSS POCUSSSS (yeah, i don’t know what this is either. it sounded catchy in my head while i was typing.)

 

Summer break is about 2/3 over, and I’ve done nothing of value thus far. I’m ok with it though. If it means I have a little more mental energy for better grades fall semester. Besides, I have an internship starting Monday (Yeah it means I only have a 2 week internship….) so the summer won’t have been a waste.

 

ALMOST FORGOT!!!! Last Thursday, I pulled off an epic snipe on ebay for a pair of GOLD JS WINGS. Within 5 minutes before the auction ended, bidding went from $65 to $85 when there were only 30 seconds left. Then, with 15 seconds remaining, I placed my first bid, a maximum bid of $90 which brought the auction up to $86. With 5 seconds left, in a last ditch effort, another bidder placed a maximum bid of $89, which my $90 max bid automatically outbid, giving no one else time to react. I’m sure it doesn’t seem nearly as exciting when you’re reading about it. But I’m sure most people can appreciate this level of awesomeness: the gold colorway of JS wings retail for $240 and they rarely go for under $135 on ebay. I’m still waiting for them to ship, but here’s a picture to save you people the trouble of googling if you don’t know what JS Wings look like:

 

SORRY LADIES YOUR SHOE COLLECTIONS SUCK MINE IS BETTER

 

I got a massive haircut yesterday. It’ll grow back eventually.

 

Look forward to more frequent but shorter posts once the school year starts. (Plus an epic Australia post)

 

Less than 3 weeks until Australia (and APEX, but I probably can only go for day 2), and about a month until I move into my apartment at UIUC. Time is flying. Good thing I’ve got wings for it now. (JS WINGS LOLOLOLOL GET IT?)

difficulties July 19, 2010

My body is refusing to cooperate with me. I fear that I won’t be satisfied with my running for many months. Maybe that fear will blow over once I’m at school and running with the club everyday. For now, I feel pathetic when I run. I barely make it through 40 minute runs, and it’s quite common for me to have to stop 20 minutes into a run because I’m winded and my muscles feel like they’re failing. This isn’t a mental issue. It couldn’t be. I’ve been patient with my body up until this point, and the occasional terrible run (in reality, this occurs more often than not now) has become impossible to ignore. This isn’t a self pity post though. The only realistic solution is for me to to accept that fact that my body is going to need substantial time before that 4:33 mile PB is changing.

 

I’m rather curious why, on a biological level, it has been so difficult for me to regain fitness. Is it because my bout with mono took away so much from my body during the initial illness (2 weeks) that it is still recovering? Or is it because my body is still constantly debilitated by the long term effects of mono? (4 and a half months later) I’m not sure if my sentence structure properly distinguishes the two scenarios I visualized in my head, but hopefully it does.

 

All I need to feel much better about this period of terrible running is some sign of improvement. I’ve been unable to move up from 40 minute runs to 50 minute runs, and as soon as that happens, I think I’ll be in much better shape psychologically.